davehayes.org

as you might have noticed, i’ve been busy with the site over the past couple days. the biggest change is one that’s not really visible (although the site is definitely superficially different as well). i decided to ditch the bblog backend in favor of wordpress. why? i don’t know. maybe because there are more plugins, the management is nicer… a number of reasons i suppose. more than anything i was just ready for a change.

as far as the site theme/template/look or whatever you call it, it’s a hacked version of a theme called kubrick, which you’ve probably seen before due to the fact that it’s the default theme for wordpress. i made a lot of little changes and i think the final product is definitely a work apart from the original, but i feel like i should give credit anyway. i still have a few little changes to make here and there, but nothing major.

other than that, i recently bought a hauppauge wintv-pvr-150 and installed mythtv on my computer (which runs ubuntu linux). all i can say about that, is that it’s really cool. everyone should have something like this

on a parting note, if you’re visiting this site with internet explorer, you’ll notice two buttons at the top of the navigation bar to the right. i’ve decided to join the movement on the web against internet explorer. i was driven to this by the headaches that IE’s non-standards compliance gave me when trying to get the new theme sorted out. i go to great lengths to make sure that this site complies with all international web standards (and you can verify this yourself with the links under “meta” to the right), and even though my code is completely standards compliant, valid xhtml and css, internet explorer renders it incorrectly. so, if you are a windows/internet explorer user, please check out browse happy, stop IE and too cool for IE to see what i’m fussing about and what you can do about it. i know you’re not a tech-head, but it’s important and you should do it. if you’re using pretty much any other browser, you’ll notice a cool little “too cool for IE” banner at the lower right of the page.

so we’ve changed the website, changed how we watch tv and hopefully will be changing the browsers we use. not to mention, it’s fall, so the leaves are changing too. change is good.

for those of you that love me, i’ve compiled a list of things i want for christmas. i put a lot of work into this, so i would very much like to see my requests come to fruition

Gun Stuff

• Barrett M82A1
• S&W Model 500
• H&K USP 45
• Guncrafter Industries Model 1 50GI

Music Stuff

• SSL AWS900
• ADAM S3A
• RME HDSP9652
• Apogee AD-16X

Car Stuff

• Dart Iron Eagle Block
• Hellion Turbo Kit
• Canfield Aluminum Cylinder Heads
• G-Force T-56 Transmission

Realistic Stuff

• Friday the 13th – From Crystal Lake to Manhattan
• The Evil Dead (Book Of The Dead Limited Edition)
• A new motherboard, processor and video card
• .45 ACP Ammo

well, i think that’ll do it for this year.

i was sittin’ in my church, that’s God’s sanctuary
sittin’ in my pew i was feelin’ kinda worried
just thinkin’ about school, ’bout life, ’bout girls
thinkin’ ’bout how God gives food to the squirrels
hopin’ God’s provision is enough for me
feelin’ in my pocket had a dollar thirty-three
startin’ to get bummed about my lack of money
a light came from the sky, whoa hey, ain’t that funny?
a briefcase dropped with a million bucks for me
that’s when i woke up, i knew it was a dream

money, i ain’t got no money
that’s fine with me
money, i ain’t got no money
but God blesses me

workin’ for God ain’t the best payin’ job
but that’s ok, i don’t care, at least i’m not a snob
makin’ cheese sayin’ please on my knees in the night
hopin’ that my pocket book will turn out alright
salvation army, goodwill, thrift stores
i can smell the bargains ‘fore i even hit the door
abercrombie fitch, american eagle, they can ride out
resale shops (there you go) yeah, that’s my hideout

money, i ain’t got no money
but that’s fine with me
money, i ain’t got no money

the love of money is the root of all evil
hundred dollar bills they be messin’ up people
make your brain go insane as the coins start to rattle
need versus greed it’s the ultimate battle
i said the love of money is the root of all evil
hundred dollar bills they be messin’ up people
make your brain go insane as the coins start to rattle
need versus greed it’s the ultimate battle

money, i ain’t got no money
but that’s fine with me
money, i ain’t got no money
but God blesses me
i said money, i ain’t got no money
but that’s fine with me
money, i ain’t got no money
but God blesses me

yeah i’m down
what up, dawg?
fo shizzle in the hizzle

download “money”

the past week or so have been kind of rough around these parts. i can’t really find any language to accurately describe it, other than to say that social situations are becoming increasingly more frustrating for me. i’m struggling with finding the root of the issue, as the problems of every day life tend to complicate whatever deeper issues may be going on. couple that with emotionally clouded judgement and very little direction in one’s day to day happenings (as well as an admittedly lacking devotional life) and we have one slightly confused individual.

i don’t know about some of you, but i have a tendency to try to set up little bargains with God. almost delivering an ultimatum, which in retrospect is completely stupid, but seems reasonable at the time (as sin always does). “i’ve been good lately, abstaining from x sin for a couple days now,” i’ll say. “perhaps you could reward me by making the attractive young lady at church a little more interested in me…” then of course this doesn’t happen. i find myself at home feeling bitter, as if God some how let me down or didn’t hold up his end of the bargain (which to type the words out, they sound like lies from the mouth of satan himself; and they are), and in that moment of frustration decide to myself, “well if that’s how i’m going to be rewarded, i might as well just continue on in my sin.”

what a scary thought process. as i sit here now writing about it, it seems completely absurd and appalling, yet in a few days i can almost guarantee to you that i will fall into it in some capacity. and as usual, i’ll later come to my senses and realize how foolish my decisions were and try to let go of that sin again, only to start the cycle over again. the weekly rejection (whether it be actual or simply perceived, which is a whole other issue in itself) of the young lady at church that i might fancy doesn’t help matters in the least. it’s like this huge swirling quagmire of un-biblical ideas and expectations of God, un-biblical ideas about relationships and a misunderstanding ultimately of who i am in Christ and what that means.

i can’t help but feel completely ensnared at this point, and i’m about to go dig into the book of james, some prayer time and counsel with friends in search of some answers. hopefully tomorrow i’ll have some positive commentary to make.